A new phrase in my life has just started...I m happy but still a bit confuse with it.I m so glad because I am given this great opportunity to finally do something that I love,to do something that is set on my mind a long time ago and to decide my own future instead of letting others to decide it...I m confuse right now because I am still doubt about it;whether this path is the right path for me,whether I will regret it or will satisfy with it in the future.I m taking the one of the biggest risk of my life...
The worst part of this choice is that I have lost my inspiration..The one who used to inspire me to be a lawyer.I m trying my best to full fill 'our' dream over here but u are just fooling around over there.As if,I m walking along this path with no signs,no light or no one that could lead me to keep on moving..Right now,I just have to go with the flow and hoping that some one,some day will come to the rescue.I will just try my best to keep holding on to this dream of mine.I m so lost with out my inspiration.I m just scared that this risk will be the biggest mistake ever in my life;besides not having u in my life anymore...However,I have to go on with my life with or with out u.
I m starting to like everything over here except for the weather.It is extremely hot over here due to the the pollution of course..My class schedule is just fine.I love the fact that I m actually exploring the outside world by myself now...I have to look for myself now,no one to guide me or to protect me...Its all up to me now...I m learning how to become a very independent girl now...Why I love it???There is no specific reason..just love my life right now though there are still some things that I m not satisfied with it...
Sorry because I haven't post anything on my blog for a very long time,I was too busy with my life back then...PFTTT.....I m just so confused right now....I m taking about my feeling....I have just opened the door of my heart to him but why is it that I still feel uneasy,unsatisfied,unhappy with it...This door of my heart has not been entered by anyone for ages now except for him of course...N I have decided to move on now,no more waiting for u;hoping that u will come back through my door,hoping for phone calls from u everyday,hoping to meet u again n do all the stuffs that we used to do...Because I m so tired of hoping n waiting for something that is so UNCERTAIN...Please don't ever giving up in our relationship,don't break my heart just like what he did to me n please don't ever hurt me.It is so painful....=( I do put millions of hope in our relationship but not too much because the truth is I m still scared that I will have to get through the very horrible part life of mine AGAIN....I don't want it,never ever.YES,I STILL HAVING PHOBIA when it comes to a relationship but it doesn't mean I have gave up in looking for my prince charm...My life regarding us has just started and I promise to u that U will never regret this because I will make u feel damn happy that will be endless...And it is all the matter of time so wait patiently....
Back to my studies;My assingments are many,I m telling u the truth..hahahaha..I have done most of my assignments but I haven't start a single thing on my revision yet..YES,YES,YES,,I M SUCH A LAZY ASS....I prefer doing assignments than doing revision and I don't know why but it is just me...hahaha..So I wanted to share an assignmnet of mine but then,when I tried to put it up,I failed..technology and I will never be best friends...LOL....Luckily,I have computer class so that I won't be this dumb anymore...
So yah,have a nice day and enjoy every single moment of life....N sorry for this lame short post.I just felt like updating my blog as soon as possible since it has been a long time I haven't post anything and my blog looks so dull..And I feel like sharing my new phrase of life,a new chapter....I will upgrade my blog in a week;my one week holiday will start in a week....And I guarantee that the next few posts will be very emotional...haha..
Just started.........
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