After years have passed,I never thought that I will been through this again...When I heard the quote 'Time heals all wounds',the first thing that come across in my mind is actually,"PFFTTT..What a lie.."But things have changed.I didn't notice it till now.My 'wounds' slowly heals by itself.Now,what's left???A scar.I m just scared right now;if the risk I m taking now would also leave another scar soon.
I m scared,happy,sad and bad at the same time.All these feelings are mixing up together.I m happy to know that I have u by my side.As if I m dreaming right now.Actually,I m astonish too..I mean u????hahahaha..It is funny actually when I think back about our first met n stuffs....Who knows we will end up like this right?
I m feeling so lucky now but I feel bad too...Some how I think and feel that I don't deserve u..I feel like u should fall for another not me..I mean it is kinda make u unlucky to have me..I m just another hideous ugly idiot creature..I think that I m not good enough for u in everything...I just don't know why...After having the phobia for years,u came in my life...Along with a new hope and beginning...I thank God for it but still I think I m not good enough for u.I never felt something like this before.I know that u have been telling me for million times to stop thinking that way.But I just can't.I m so sorry..
I m so sorry because I ain't good enough for u.I m also thanking u for being such an understanding person.I m thanking u too for waiting.U r such a good listener...I never tell anyone about my past except to my closest friend.So far,u r the only one who knows my dark past with details.I usually don't trust anyone easily but when it comes to u,there is always an exception.I really hope that u r the right one for me though I m not perfect enough for u...I m so sorry because I m not good enough for u in every aspects... *sighs...
How could a person like u like me????have a crush on me???? I m hating myself right now...If u find some one better outside there,I wont be shocked or mad.Believe me.I will pray for your happiness always.I m not being emotional like u claim..I m just telling u how I feel right now...LOL.
The truth is I m just another typical girl who wants happy ending so badly.But life isn't a fairytale.Whatever happens after this,I will accept it with an open heart no matter how tough it is.Right now,I have to get my head into studies.How about u?Time will decide everything.Time will decide where will we be or who will we be with with the help of our effort of course just a little faith and luck.Make sure u achieve your dream whether with me by your side as a friend,or more or just another stranger in your life..
Sorry,I ain't good enough for u.
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