LEFT AND RIGHT... Things change as time passes by with out we realising it.Sometimes,we wonder why is that things happen in a very offensive way?Why is that by the time we realise our mistake,it has been too late to undo it for most of us?Why is that we do not beware of the upcoming problem in the first place?Why is that the decision that we made earlier is turning to be a disaster?
Well,firstly problems are just so meant to be in our life.With out it,our lifes will be so dull,unattaractive and not so advanterous after all.Some how,we do need it.Due to it,we will become stronger,more mature and more careful when it comes to every single matter in our lifes.For some,they can change to be some one new.Whether one self changes to be a better person or worse is depending on the way they look at it,the way they look at thier problems and the way they solve it.In the blink of an eye,we can turn to be some one who we do not even know.
The momment it comes up in life,we will be start cursing it but then,by the time we manage to overcome it,we will be smiling to ourselves.We will be proud of ourselves,we will feel so refersh.What a relief!!!Label it all u want;problems,obsatcles,the headaches,the mystery,the questions and the puzzles in our lifes.We will never ever able to run from it.Just try to run from it once,u will realise that u will have to face it in the end.It does take time;for some,it might take a long time but patient is one of the ways to get out of it.In fact,it is the only way for certain cases.Yes,we do feel so sick about it sometimes but once again it is just meant to 'lighten' up life.Never surrender,give up and lose hopes in life easily.Taking all the time we need is also the key to get rid of it.
Life is a cycle.We can be at the top ,we can be at the bottom in just few seconds.Sure thing that it is very easy to be said,very hard to be done and no one knows the exact feeling,the suffering and the experience of one self because not every one has the same problem;Maybe in the same topic but not in the same situations.Everyone is fated to have their own problem.Each of us envy each other when it comes to certain matter,we will never be grateful;that is just human being.It is always greener on the other side isn't it?So,when u look at one person whom u envy much,whom u salute,whom u feel as if it is better to be her or him,think again.Everyone has their own weakness and strength and God is always testing our faith in a lot of different ways.Never look at a thing from a single angle only instead look at it from many.I end up my post this time with poem entitled 'Left and Right'.This is actually the poem that I had put up in my power point project,the one that I wanted to put up over here but did not manage to do so..=)
LEFT AND RIGHT...
Tell me is it a crime to be a faithful lover?Is it illegal at any place?Well,if it is then there will be no more 'Romeo' and 'Juliet' in the world.Why is that there are two type of lovers?the one who always put their hopes on that particular person ONLY and the one who is so not loyal,the one who thinks that being loyal to the one person is a part of embarrassing things to do,the one who thinks that the other type is an idiot for being a faithful lover.Honestly,is it a mistake to be one?Oh,come on.Love is blind,universal,complicated and unpredicrable.
U can have it all of sudden and u can loose it in the blink of an eye.When u have it,u feel as if u are such a lucky person to have it,u just keep on smiling when it comes to Mr/Mrs Right Now,everything about him/her is just so perfect and when u look yourself in the mirror,u feel as if it is a dream.Perhaps the sweetest dream of yours?Then,u just can loose it the next time u look at it.Your world is tearing apart,your heart is shattering,tears non-stop,sadness,depress,disapointment are just everywhere.It is so mystery when it comes love.It is the sweetest dream yet the worst nightmare for one.
I am sick waiting for the person pateinetly.I don't put the blame on anyone else for this.It is my fault for being a faithful lover after all.No offence,but if u think deeply,would u want a patner who is a palyer?who text other persons when they with u?who ignore u when u call them just to show how much u care about them?I believe what goes around come around.What u did in the past may affect your future.Always treat the one who is always around u nicely.Never ever take them for granted..It is just the matter of time now.
MAD & SICK.
A few seconds,hours,days,weeks and a month back,I was so pissed with myself .Not just that,I am totally damaged by my own self, my own actions, my own choice.Things that I souldn't be done or even think about it,my unwanted nightmare,my painful history are now my best friends.REPEAT:My worst enemy ever is now my best freind.
I cried non-stop,thinking about the mistakes,the regret,the 'heart-attack',the uncounatble tears,the unsolved puzzle,the unanswered questions when this particular part of my life RETURNS.Honestly,I really don't know the mistakes that I shouldn't be done in this path.I mean I can see it but it is unclear,uncertain.I am still confuse and looking for the missing piece.No one how much have I suffer because of this mistake except for Him.I m half mad,insane,depressed and stress at the moment.
Everyday,I put up my fake smile,the have-to-laugh face,act as if everything is fine but the truth?I m dying inside alone,crying painfully and hoping for the impossibles.I don't even know to whom I should share my feeling,my tears,my madness.So,I decided to see a psychiatrist soon enough.Yes,I m officially SICK.
PS:I m thinking about leraning guitar.Why?I want to be a romantic person and maybe turn up my poems to songs.