Random & shortest post so far...

  I am so thakful I m still alive right now,still inhaling the oxygen,still have the abilities to know what is right or wrong,still on the right track;I hope so.I m so thakful that u walked unto my life before though I feel a little bit regret about it.Why?It is because u walked into mine,gave me hope,gave the lesson of my life...Now,I truly  believe that there is no one else in this world who is so kind,faithful and sincere like u.. I feel like as if I m the stupidest girl for letting u go.I was a fool to let u go.But I am just another human being and can only proposes as God disposes. Believe me,ur girl is a very lucky one to have u.I am so jealous yet happy for u.I m jealous to see ur pics with her,to see the happiness between both of u...But then again,I m still happy for u.Loving some one doesn't mean u have to make sure that the one has to be yours always,sometimes it means u have to let the one's hands go so that the one will have the chance to look for a happy ending in his life instead of just having him by your side the whole time yet he feels suffer.Love needs a lot of sacrifices and it is so not about whether the sacrifices that being made are worth or not.It is about the joyness that u see in ur love one once he is no more yours.Though it is hurt to know that ur love one have moved on with out u in his life,u still have to be happy for him no matter how hard it is.I really can see the happiness clearly in your eyes,I can see clearly that u have a very happy life with out me,I can see clearly that I totally have lost you...
   I have to admit that it is one of the toughest moments in my life to look for ur replacer,the new boy,my one n only. Honestly,I feel so hurt right now. There are so many things in my mind right now and every single of it is making me crazy..I try my best to move on but why is it that it is so damn freaking hard for me to do so.U can do it easily but why can't I??? Is it God's punishement towards me for being a bad person,evil through out my whole life??Am i really such a bitch till God gave the thoughest challenge in my life???I m writing this at 3,4 o'clock in the morning instead of studying;my final is actually next week and I haven't prepare myself at all..DAMN!!! I just really have to express my emotions right now...I don't have the ability to control it anymore.My tears keep on rolling from these eyes since the first word that I typed in this post.It is just unstopable.
  All the sweet songs keep on playing in my head and they remind me of us.I want to hate u with all my heart but I failed to do so...=( I m just hurt so much right now,I really need a cure..I don't want to keep on being hurt because it is sooo,sooo sooo painful.I don't even know wheteher I can take it anymore..God,Please give me the strength to move on with this pathethic life of mine.No matter what,I want to die as a mukmin and not just another muslim...For now,I just don't get it and hopefully I will one day. I m so mad at myself,hating my self right now for everything.I mean everything..Because all of these wouldn't happen if only I decided not to do certain things back then.This is the most random post so far..VERY RANDOM and shortest too...

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