So not a crush or falling in love but just another bizarre feeling in me....

    Do u know that I m amazed with ur intelligence in everything?Do u know that I still think that u not that hot as everyone claim yet I feel u r so lucky?Do u know that somehow I do envy u in a lot of matters? N most importantly,do u know that I m DYING to be get to know u better? 
  I do not know how but u do amaze me in a way that I could not understand.I have heard a lot of rumors about u.Nothing to be shock about as u r Mr popular after all.The goods and the bads about u. I don't even know why  my hands keep on typing this post about u.I just feel like doing so.Lets not talk about how bad boys u are or how good u are at being fooling around with girls or how expert u are at sweet talk and winning a girl's heart. But,lets talk about how good your English is,how lucky u r to be u,how fortunate u are to for everything in your life.
  First and foremost,I love your English.It is superb.No wonder u get Band 5. Everytime , I log in to my blog account,one of the first few blogs that I will be looking forward to is yours, of course. I like your blog is because of your way of writing and the content of your blog's posts. Too bad,sometimes u do set your blog to invited readers only. I do admit I am big fan of your blog and English.No doubt that u are such a sweet talker and kinda a player,u can easily express out your feelings,emotions in various ways.I think if we really are meant to be friends one day,I am going to ask u teach me how to be an expert like u in such things...
  U r damn freaking lucky to be u and I hope u know that.Lets not talk about your look because it is kinda universal and beauty lies on the eyes of the beholder. But,look around u and u have everything in life. MONEY,family,friends,girls,the 'brain' and MONEY.U are Mr popular too.Just mention your name to the people of my hometown,they will start talking about u non-stop.U live in a harmony family yet rich too. U attend private university,have a black P******  car,spent a lot of money on such 'wasted' things and u have Macbook;I m dying to have it but still not yet having it.I envy u in this matter too.U will always have what u want,don't u?U are almost perfect and no wonder why girls are attracted to you.Take care of it and do appreciate everything the whole time because one day,u will feel regret for not doing so.
  Last but not least,u are not that typical bad boy or notorious boy.U are such a brilliant guy. U don't have to work hard to gain good result.U are just so good at anything u do.I mean despite u being u;doing the typical bad boy's stuffs,u still manage to achieve success in your studies. I envy u in this matter. I hate u for having such intelligent brain.But,what the heck,God is always fair.
  I really don't know u well but I do hope I will one day. U are the complicated type of homosapien but unique too.I hope that I will be your friend in fact close friends though I do know that it is a little bit impossible because we rarely meet each other and I don't think that u know my existence.To add to that,I m so not your type who just love socializing and sweet talking and spending money on a lot of luxuries stuffs. I am  so incapable of doing it.OK,this sounds lame but I still wanna write this post about u.
  I have this kind of bizarre feeling in my self where I m looking forward to know u,to have u in my life. But,not as my Mr right but as my friend or maybe BFF?It is bizarre yet true. I m not falling in love with u or having crush on u it just erm,erm I don't know the right word to describe it but for sure it is not about the love feeling but more towards the friendship feeling.Maybe because I have heard a lot about u and I wonder which is true which is not.This curiosity has lead me to have the feeling of wanting to know u.I am so looking forward to know u better,my-future-friend n don't worry,I m not falling for u.U are taken and I hope u already meet your happily ever after.I think I have found mine and I m not letting it drifts away again this time and the funniest thing is that I know u through him as he is one of your most important persons in your life;I think.
 

PS:Happy special day to u...U have turn 19 atm and I hope u have great life ahead of u,Mr OOO.....

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Breathless

If our love was a fairytale ,I would charge in and rescue you,
On a yacht baby we would sail ,To an island where we’d say I do.

And if we had babies they would look like you ,It’d be so beautiful if that came true
You don’t even know how very special you are .

You leave me breathless,You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless ,I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams ,So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless.

And if our love was a story book ,We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about ,How I’m thankful for the life we’ve made .

And if we had babies they would have your eyes ,I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don’t even know how very special you are .

You leave me breathless ,You’re everything good in my life 
You leave me breathless ,I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams ,So beautiful you’re leaving me

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You’re like an angel ,The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You’re something special ,I only hope that I’ll one day deserve what you give me
But all I can do is try ,Every day of my life .

You leave me breathless ,You’re everything good in my life ,You leave me breathless ,
I still can’t believe that you’re mine ,You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me ,Breathless,Breathless.



I don't know why but I am addict to this song,maybe cause it relates to me that much?Every single word of this lyric makes me so touch.It makes me feel empty.I prefer the Snowflaker remix that is in his album.I think I am going to learn this song by hard soon enough,if only n if only I have plenty of time.LOL. I feel like singing this song in front of u right now,maybe in the rain?Right in front of your house n a guitar in my hand?N maybe along with a bouquet of flowers or a box of chocolate as well?At the end of my singing,I will definitely say 'SORRY for my man's voice.=.='''' I m a girl with a man's voice' PFFTTTTT....

PS:I wish I have a great voice.Like DUH!!!

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Taking risk,making choices...

   Life is all about taking risks.Every risk that we take decides our future.Being too much careful might cause us losing the most precious thing in the world.I have took mine.I took so many risks in the past.There are some that make the high risk pay off,there are some that are not worthy at all.But,everything happens for a reason. It's hard to accept life the way it is but we have to go on with it whether we like it or not. Every unforgettable disappointment that I went through,I make sure that I have a heart full of determination to go on with life and strong willing to move on.Sometimes,I bring along uncountable tears that always accompany me during the harsh time of life.There are some moments where I feel so down with my life,where I almost give up n surrender in this war of life.Then,all of sudden there will be some kind of inspiration that appear from no where n it makes me realize that life actually isn't that bad as we think.The world might judge us for every single action that we do n the truth is no one knows the reason behind it;Well,unless if we tell them.At this particular moment I m taking one of the biggest risks in my life,to do or not do?I always ask myself what's the main point of waiting and sticking to one if it will end unrequited or unexpected?I have my own reasons why I choose to take this risk even though the motive behind it still seem unclear.Others do label me as an idiot?Clueless? or maybe a stubborn yet a fool girl?The thing is they don't know what I m experiencing right now,they seriously don't know how I feel at this moment.I have so much in minds from my studies life to my personal life.They just don't get it,don't they? They should put themselves in my shoes,what will they do? I appreciate every single motivation or support that they give but I hope they just know me better. Yes,till now I do question myself on why I am taking this uncertain risk? Well,I always tell others that life is all about taking risk n making choices.It doesn't matter if it is the right one or not but it is always a big matter if we have put effort to the max on something that we believe on.It's better to try instead of not trying at all.This is what I hold to for the past 18 years and it makes me who I am.I will keep on wondering about the accuracy of my choices as I already choose to stay instead of leaving.I know as time passes by,I will have the answer in my hand.I tell myself ever single day that I will not regret in any of my choices.I m learning to erase the word 'regret' in my dictionary of life.

PS:I am phobia to take a high risk in life but I have learnt in a harsh way that life is all about taking risks.
So,never feel scared to take one!

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Letting go.

  Truth to be told, I miss some one out there so much. I realise that u are no more mine, I do realise that u already gave up on us a while ago ,I realise that u certainly have deleted me from ur life for once and for all. For now, I have totally lost u. I admit it is so tough for me to get through it by myself. But, just so u noe, I will always be here for u no matter what because every word that I gave to u is like a vow that I am bound to once I made it .I am still waiting for u to come back, for ur texts to fill up my inbox, for u to call me up every single day of my life. I just miss the moment of having u lying down in front of me and felt asleep easily every time u are piss off with me. I just miss looking at ur sweet smile, ur round eyes and ur one n only dimple. But, things have changed. There will be no more our memories, tears, laughter. I do believe everything happens for a reason but at this particular moment, I m just about to give up in life. Its like I have totally lost my reason to live. I m trying to get over u as time passes by but at the same time, I am still fooling myself in front of everyone else. U know why? Because despite the way u treated me in the past is so S***, I still keep on hoping for miracles to happen. I want miracles badly now. I seriously want u back in my life .I admit that I did so many mistakes in our past but everyone makes mistake n  deserves the second chance right? Mistakes are part of learning the meaning of life. Maybe u haven't realise how important u are in my life,maybe u don't realise that I m urs faithfully.Oh, God! Can’t I just have time machine to skip this part of life of mine? Or maybe the new cure for this hurt? Which ever it is, I think time is the right cure for now. When the time comes, I will start all over again. Just so u noe, I never regret a single thing that I did for u, in fact I m proud of myself for doing so. I m trying my best to let u go too but still hoping for the uncertain from u though it is painful wait.I told u before n I m going to tell u again n again;I m a faithful lover and ain't just another sweet talker or player.

PS:I just miss having u as some one so special in my life but I m just so lost.I just want my life to get way better than it is and is it too much?
                                                                                                                        

                                                                                                                                                    With love,
                                                                                                                                                  Farah Ash.

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A letter that is only for u...

I saw people doing this;writing letter to future patner and I think it is kinda fun so I give a try on this.

  Dear my future husband,
  At this momment,we may have met each other or not yet?we may have knew each other but not well enough or maybe we are close yet so far way.Who knows?I just wanna u to know that I m writing this especially for you.Maybe it is too early because base on my future plan,marriage is something that I wanna to do by the time I m exactly 30(minimum age).Why 30?Because I wanna be really stable physically, emotionally  and financially.I wanna give the best to u and the upcoming family.I mean it.I dont want my family to feel or experience poverty like I had been through before.I wanna provide the best education for the kids.I wanna the kids to be smart,brilliant but not too much of NERDY.I wanna help u out in ur carrier in a way.Maybe,if u r into bussines,I can help u out financially.
  I wanna both of us to go to work together in our BMW car.We are going to hire a driver but not for us but for the kids.So that we don't have to rush to fetch up the children to and from school.We are so going to need a cook because I m very bad at cooking.Everyday I wanna u to drive me to work and right before I get my ass out of the car,U will tell me whether we are going to have lunch togehter or not.If I have important meeting or handling big cases,I wanna to listen to ur big ideas and wish me luck.I will not be too much on work,I promise!To me,work is important but not as important as family.
  I wanna us to live in a house that at least has mini library in it and a swimming pool.I hate reading but I wanna set a good example for the children,I can always try to be one...I want them to be a book worm while u can use it as your home-office.The swimmnig pool?I m a bad swimmer but it's never too late to learn something new in life.I m going to make sure that the kids going to be good at swimming and playing music instrument as it may help them in a way.We are so going to travel from one place to another.But,once in a blue moon,we are going to have our honey moons where it is going to be only two of us.Did I mention I wanna 3 kids?I have figured out the names..=)
  Everyday,we are going to wake up in each other arms,feeling so grateful to God for the bless and thakful for having each other for the rest of the life.There shall be no regret at all even if our marriage is not as beautiful as it supposed to be at that time.Whatever it is,we are going to overcome it together.Everyday,I m going to warm up our love in many ways.I am going to express our love in many languages non-stop.I will always try to be very romantic as much as I can;In fact,I m having so many ideas regarding it now.I m going to learn guitar,boost up my writing poem skills,learn the three powerful words in different languages,read more and more to get tips on how to be romantic.The part of life that u choose to spend it on me will always full of suprise.There will always something new that we are going to try out every day.Just sit back,enjoy the up n down of life with me by ur side,holding ur hand always and know that u will always be in my heart.


PS:I kinda support polygamy in a way but not fully.Others have problem on that?I don't give a damn about    it.=P

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